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1:12 pm - Monday, May. 28, 2007
Not A Pretty Blonde

Not A Pretty Blonde

Sun 5/27/07 (11:01 a.m.)

(Watching So You Think You Can Dance, that I recorded on Thursday...)

As an actor/performer, there’s an impulse that I have never understood–I don’t know why you would get up in front of people to do anything...and do it really badly (Unless, as an actor, you’re playing a character who’s a bad singer/dancer/actor/whatever). Short of wanting a brief career as a novelty act/national joke like William Hung, I just don’t get it. Never have, even as far back as The Gong Show.

(I have more to say on this subject, but I’ll save it for another time.)

(A quick aside–My Propel commercial has aired twice during the first hour of the show. It also ran during the recent season finale of Desperate Housewives. So “Yay!” for a continuing “income stream”...)

(1:50 p.m.)

With the play last Thursday, visiting Cary and Kay yesterday, having lunch with Bruce and Erin B. later today (They’re in town from Michigan till Tuesday), and doing karaoke with people from JS Represents on Wednesday, I’m experiencing a virtual whirlwind of social activity lately.

Having a social life is one of the things that’s come up in therapy; Javier asked me one week to list some things I’m passionate about, and my answers were 1) to find a way to actually act (ex. to do plays at night while I’m auditioning for other things during the day), 2) to further develop my talents, expand my interests, and become more “self-actualized” in general, and 3) to have a social life (One that includes general being out-and-about with other people, having male friends, and dating).

There are a lot of challenges involved in making those things happen–first and foremost, time (between working, auditioning, casting workshops, etc., when am I doing all this extra stuff?) and energy (I’m barely able to do what I’m doing some days, so how am I going to do more?)–but clearly these things are important, so I’m going to figure out how to make them happen (I imagine other things contribute to having a good life as well–having your health, for example, and feeling that you’re doing some good in the world–though when I think about it, those things could fall under “self-actualization”.

Mon 5/28/07 (12:00 p.m.)

Memorial Day...

I’m working today from 3:00-11:00, so once again, it’s another holiday that doesn’t mean much to me (If anything, holidays actually suck more than other days, since my jobs–at the bookstore before this, now at the movie theater–are “destination spots” for a lot of people with time on their hands. Not to mention that those are days I know there won’t be any checks in the mail, or calls about auditions or gigs. But anyway...

Speaking of gigs, my “Cold Stone Creamery” spot is now running, and I’m very happy with how it turned out.

If you want to check it out, it’s on their website ( The spot is titled “heiress”, so just click on the picture of the pretty blonde, and there I’ll be (I’m not “the pretty blonde”; I’m more of a “character-y brunette”).

Have just been chatting with Jane (Have I mentioned I really like her...?). And now the time has come for me to slip into unconsciousness, before having to go off to work.



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