11:17 pm - Mon 1.12.2009
Once again, laziness and fatigue lead me to post this portion of my latest email to Jane, saving me the effort of basically writing about it all over again:
I'm basically okay at this point, health-wise, pretty close to completely recovered from surgery (There's nothing I need to do that I can't do), with no other out-of-the-ordinary physical complaints to complain about.
Reading over what I wrote, it's not really true that "all I really want is for the bills to get paid"; I want the bills to get paid, with room to spare, via booking gigs.
But right now, I'll take what I can get - That's closer to the truth of the matter.
Well, I could have had a more productive day, I guess, but I did better than usual, and I feel good about that (I think because I had a "To Do" list for today in my head).
It does help to have an idea of at least a couple things I want to get done in a day, preferably the night before; I won't typically get to everything, even if it is just "a couple of things", but it's pretty much guaranteed I'll get something done I wouldn't have attended to otherwise.
The other thing I think is going to be helpful to keep in my head is the idea of making sure I do things, every day, the move me forward in important areas of my life - Financial/Career Concerns, Physical Health, Social Interaction, Creative Satisfaction, etc.
If I make a point of hitting as many of those as I can in a given day, and in general, "taking stock" of how I'm using my time, I think I'll be happier with myself, and with my life, than I have been.
Today I cleared off my kitchen table (A much bigger, grosser deal than it sounds, involving a lot of dead roaches, roach droppings, and more spiders than I've ever seen at one time). Then I swept the kitchen and dining room floor, and threw out some trash that had collected for...well, let's just say a very long time.
And I went for a walk (Not a super-long walk, but enough of a walk), which was probably most notable for the fact that I was doing it in the daytime; I'm trying to "change things up" by not always walking at night, for various reasons.
And as I said in my email to Jane, I re-did my resume, which felt like a very big deal (That turned out to be no deal at all, really); Molly had formatted it for me a long time ago, and I'd had a copy of it in WordPerfect forever, till I had to reboot my system because of a virus (Since then, I've made copies of copies of copies).
Anyway, I'd been convinced that re-doing it myself (Since I needed to make some changes) would cause me to weep and gnash my teeth in frustration. But while there were a few little "hiccups" as I figured out what I was doing, it was not that hard.
And now I have a resume that tells potential employers I'm in SAG and AFTRA, and that lists a new film credit (I decided to list that "glorified extra" thing I did this past year - in a movie called Off Hollywood - because they credited me as a "principal" after all, and because the "Film" section of my resume looks pretty sad)
So anyway, I felt good about that; like getting my new headshots, I once again found myself thinking, "Okay, I'm getting my new 'calling card' together...so somebody call me already!".
And socially, I chatted with Katie H., a Michigan transplant who lives out here now, earlier this evening (And I may meet up with her in the next week or so for a drink).
Anyway, long story short, I do feel that, in a couple small ways, I "moved myself forward" in a couple areas today.
So yay me.
And now I'm going to move myself towards my bed, because I'm working a fairly early Weight Watchers meeting tomorrow...
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